I always forget to post pictures first then write. So, pics are out of order. But isn't that why you all come here to see pics fo the kids anyway. I know you don't want to hear my woes. Maybe I should start posting pics of my knitting as well. Would that entertain you?? Just ask and you shall receive. LOL
A few of you have inquired about any new posts. So, here I am. Not too much to report. I really think I am in a mental/emotional rut ATM. I am still PISSED about my car and Mike's tax crap!!! But on the lighter more enjoyable aspect of my life. Samuel is trying to walk. He has walked about 10-12 ft on his own. My god, it is so stinkin cute. He also has turned the corner from being a "baby" and entered the very busy and demanding world of "toddlerhood". It was just overnight that he can manuever himself up into the play chair of his, or climb onto the rocking fish and give it a whirl. Oh yes, he also climbs up the stove and hangs from the handle. He is getting very ambitious lately, standing on top of things to be higher. He climbed on the couch, from Chelsea's bed onto the window sill. You have to lvoe the days when they reach these milestones but are not mature enough to be aware of the conscequences. Like FALLIN OFF!!I have even seen him get up on the tricycle of which I have since had to put outside again after he and the bike crashed and when Chelsea ran over his foot and then moments later his hand. Poor kid. Man, kids sure do take a beating. So, here is My big one year old. That is right he had his first birthday Feb. 10! Ok, I have to cut it short and go pick up the Squirt from school. :)
Is it time to let the shock of my car dissipate? I don't know if I can? The horror and trauma of it are etched in my memory like a freakin carving in a tree. It is never going to leave my head. I wish I had the strength to let it go. But really it has created so many issues in the days since it's occurance! I keep replaying the damn thing standing in the middle of the road, it's eyes, I can recall immediately thinking "holy shit, this thing is huge, it's a bull", I can feel the movement of trying to swerve and then seeing his creamy underbelly in the window thinking he is going to come thru the window. For something that happened so fast, there was alot into it.Then Chelsea was screaming and Mike opened up my door and said those f^%&^$%$$ words. "I don't think we are up to date with our insurance". Where is the "we" in that? I am adamant about paying certain bills, that being one of them. I would never as so much drive to the mailbox with out it. Being I asked a couple of weeks before and received the A. of "yes, we are all paid up". I see no "we" in this error. As I write this I see, no I- it is not time. I am not ready to let it go. I so need counseling! :(
oh what to say!?!?Hmm... I am a 36 year old slave, I mean mom to 4, caretaker to 4 dogs, other random pets and personal servant to many! Hehehehe I always ponder the meaning and purpose of life. I believe everything happens for a reason. Silently,I am very analytical and struggle continously with determination to figure out exactly "Why" things unfold the way they do. Hence, the reason I call my Blog by its name "Random Thoughts of Nothingness".